My dear sweet momma, I can't make it without you. No matter how many times we got mad at each other we always loved harder than we fought. I am lost without you mom and need you home. I am waiting for the phone to ring so you can tell me something I forgot to do. Daddy is not ok without you. You always said that you are happy when we are happy...well momma we are not happy without you. My heart hurts and I need you to say that it will be ok. I am trying to be strong like you lived your life and taught me but I am not doing very well. My Ryan is so lost without you right now; please take her hand and help guide her. I will do my best to make you proud and if you ever need anything mommy look no further than my heart.